Complex WW and/or MLC #3

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Sandi,
We are on the same page:
She has not said she wants to reconcile yet (as that requires commitment to MC, Monogamy and shortly after beginning of MC a transparency plan). That being said she has made multiple comments - "I like our family, we are a happy fun family, this is nice" etc, etc. AND her actions have all been towards the DIRECTION of reconciliation - but she has not yet committed.

When I say "it wasn't that bad" I'm just implying that the re-writing of history and resentment seem to be diminishing. Obviously it was that bad - but not as bad as she had it in her head when she moved out.

We have been seeing each other a lot recently and each time there is affection initiated by her. As of yesterday I have started to pull away just a little (it feels passive/aggressive) but I'm not doing it for her reaction in anyway. It's because of how much time and affection we are sharing WITHOUT the commitment. I feel like I/we are walking into a 'trap' where she doesn't really commit but yet we still act like we are reconciling. Basically cake eating... so this week I plan to focus on myself more. Also, I understand not initiating the relationship talks - but it is hard to avoid if she starts the conversation.