I had a wonderful time away, chatted and laughed and cried with a very good friend and one of her friends who is now my friend. Had some very tough conversations, my friend has some horrendous life stuff going on right now and I feel quite overwhelmed for her. But we did have a really fantastic weekend and I felt like the future is right there, and is full of possibility. Travel really does broaden your horizons smile

Then I came home and H had:
left lots of empty wine bottles in the kitchen, and lots of dirty wine glasses, he has clearly had some friends over for a barbecue
left the kitchen quite messy (I left it immaculate before I left)
left his washing in the basket
taken my car key

In a way he was helping out by taking ds2 to his activity, but I could have cancelled that and the kids are capable of looking after themselves for the weekend without me

I feel like I've come home to find a cat has sprayed in my house.
I feel so USED. I'm good enough to do his recycling and his laundry but not good enough to have sex with? I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO angry.

I rang him up and said I was disappointed to find the house messy when I'd left it clean. He was very defensive and then got mad at me. I got angry back. I did send him a text apologising afterwards (I've only had 3 hours sleep, I'm not in any state to be making phone calls like that really but I am also too tired to drink the STFU smoothie).

What I'd really like to do now is to make it clear that he is a GUEST if he stays in this house, and as such is not to treat it (or me) with disrespect. If he chooses not to live here he is not to treat me like some kind of skivvy. And he is not to entertain our friends in my absence.

I would like to ask for my keys back (house and car) and to arrange to get all of his clothes, books, shoes, paperwork, sports kit and everything else to his flat. I rang up to cry to my friend and she suggested putting it all in a suitcase.
IT NEEDS A VAN! Honestly!

Anyway, I feel better for a good sob and a good rant to my friend.

I had a wonderful time away. There were quite a few men who flirted with me, I can do soooo much better than him. I am no longer going to be serving cake, I know I KEEP saying this, but this time I have realised that he's come home, helped himself to a massive Victoria sponge and then left all the dirty dishes and crumbs to clean up. Time to put up the Closed sign on the Dilly cafe.