MIL offered to have the children last night and today (she dropped them off about an hour ago). It was nice to have the evening to myself. I binge watched a programme on telly and just sat around doing not much. Not depressed, woe is me sitting around, just sitting around. I am a little unwell so needed the break.
The scientist has not been in contact for a few days. I suspect he is having second thoughts, which is understandable given the age difference and the intensity of the connection, so I am not too upset by it. I am taking away from the experience that it is possible to have a connection with someone who is not my H. To look at the world again as one of possibilities. The single dad has been in contact daily. He is really very sweet but I do not think I am attracted to him in the way he wants, so will probably have to tell him soon. Other than that, I have said no to everyone who has expressed an interest (mainly because they are in their 20's) in me on the OLD site.
As my kids were with my MIL last night I have not heard from H at all. MIL said she spoke to him last night (when he called the kids) and mentioned there was a problem with the boiler here (the water is not heating up as hot as it use to). He went off on why the boiler wasn't working, had I been mucking about with it, did I get someone in who mucked about with it and MIL calmly said "I doubt FS would play around with the boiler" and maybe ask her if someone's been around. Makes me realise that under the niceties the anger and blame is still so close to the surface.
