Feeling lost, scared and still fighting it... why?

[Turbine]

She felt threatened.
20 more days to next court date. Combined with the divorce.
So not where I wanted to be.
Feel so hurt all over again. Wasn't feeling much toward her either. This is so messed up. I only want to love her unconditionally and forever. I will. But not getting loved back... so hard.
Heartbroken... again...