Got a life, now what?

[97Hope]

Journaling,

Holy hell. I think I'm the poster child for how NOT to DB. Without being too graphic, I was out in the barn finishing up when H pulled in. I could tell right off that it was going to be a fun night together. I can't explain it, but i can just tell. Anyway we have a great time together running around the property getting some much needed small chores done and H says "I was going to bring you dinner to cook for you, but I got held up. Do you want to go eat Mexican?"

S17 left yesterday. My expectations were that I wouldn't see H, or if I did he would be all weird and distant. This threw me, pleasantly.

We had a BLAST at dinner. I mean we talked like it was 'us'. We both laughed and joked and it was just a breath of fresh air.

On the way home, he told me that he accidentally told his mom about his apartment, and I gave him heck about it "Why the heck didn't you lie??" (laughing) told him that she had called me and I just listened to what she had to say etc. anyway, he comes in the house with me and we have an amazing cuddle on the couch.

So much for going dark. I've found that when I try and come up with a plan, a better opportunity shows up. He mentioned me moving on and I told him that I'm not doing that right now. Temp check? A part of me would like to be tepid, but he's fragile right now. So I am probably failing at DB techniques, but I also know this man and even though he has been possessed by an alien, I ran down my options and feel like I made the right move for today.