We are in the same boat over here. Wow. It's crazy how similar our stitch's are. My H is full-out running. I don't think he knows quite what he's running from. I have some guesses.
That's the thing with GAL and doing what brings you joy. Healthy activities should never make one want a D or R more, you know? We should all be free to be ourselves, pursue hobbies etc without fear of retribution. That's where I land. I don't want a R that keeps me in bondage.
I was scared of the future for a bit. Sometimes still am. Work in progress. It's much more manageable. and for the most part, I just don't go too far out. But it doesn't paralyze me like it did in the beginning.
Cheers to growth.
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.