I know. It's hilarious. Maybe I'm just old fashioned and people are a bit more 'blunt' these days ...
I will say that the experience has been very good for my self esteem. Yes, some of them are "you are really hot" and I know deep down that they are playing the numbers game, but it is nice to hear anyway. Even the guy I saw earlier tonight who has been nothing but respectful sent a text after saying he had a really nice night, couldn't wait until next week and that it was refreshing to meet someone who was both attractive and intelligent. It makes a change from H who would rather choke then pay me a compliment and before he left said I was too skinny, too muscly and that I should really do something about the stretch marks (I've had two kids you [censored]hole).
I am glad that I waited so long to put myself out there. One thing I know is that I am not doing this because I am lonely. I have been alone long enough to know I am comfortable in my own space and that being with people, whether it be friends or a relationship is a choice and not born out of loneliness. I have the kids from tomorrow for a week and I will love spending time with them. Then next week I am seeing the 25 year old one night and the single dad another. I am also going out with friends one of the nights, and going to the gym when I can.
