Journalling: Obviously I didn't stay on this high today, but I feel pretty calm mostly. H texted me quite a lot yesterday because he wasn't out with work, today I just kept quiet other than texting him a funny photo of something I knew he'd appreciate. I know he's out with work every night this week. He was often out one or 2 nights with work before he moved out, now it's more often than not. It's almost like he's still running from something. The nights out with work got more and more frequent over the years because he prioritised his job over his family. That saddens and actually disgusts me, that his values are so out of kilter with his behaviour. The work socialising is not compulsory for career advancement. But hey, it's his life. If he wants to go out and get drunk and call it networking or career building (when he's already almost at the top) then that's his choice. I'm not anyone's plan B, even if plan A is making a ton of money he doesn't need.
I had a productive work day and am having an early night. I arranged to meet my new friend tomorrow evening at a group social thing, should be fun. I also arranged a few more things for the weeks to come, it's good to have stuff to look forward to. I'm still half thinking about moving house, but I will be patient for a while longer. Maybe this time next year.
