Those kind of barbed and cruel remarks really used to hurt me. I used to cry, and get nearly hysterical in my energy at trying to placate him or get him to take it back or comfort me. And often, he would - while holding me responsible for his behaviour. And I'd never challenge him on that because I wanted the comfort.
I feel very different today. I see a silly, out of control, insecure man with a nasty little cruel streak who is upset because he is not getting what he wants and his usual techniques don't seem to be working.
