Yeah, maybe. This isn't a good girl gone wild scenario. My views about sex are the same as my views on most things. If it brings you happiness (no matter how momentary) then as long as you are not hurting someone else, then you should do it. Which I guess is my way of saying I don't get hung up on it but I do believe in monogamy. There was chemistry, he wasn't a meat head, and it felt right.
The thing that doesn't sit right is putting my rings back on when I got home. I still want to R and I want to try and live my life. Cake eating.
I am feeling OK today. Sore - the climbing thing took its toll on my upper body and I still can't get my arms over my head without saying "ouch" in my head.
Mentally, I think I am good. I saw my H on Thursday and Friday (I worked from home and he took the week off so he could help out with the kids). We were friendlier then normal. We talked about the climbing and he laughed at how sore I was. I agreed to take the girls earlier than normal so he could do an overtime flight in the evening and even commented yesterday that the shirt he had on was a nice color on him. He made a big deal of calling the scheduling office and saying he could do the flight (he normally walks out of the room to make/take any phone call). There was no tension at all.
I am taking the kids to see Phantom of the Opera tonight. My H was not happy about it as the football finals are on and he had wanted to watch it with D12. I reminded him that he had put the childcare schedule together and I was only going by that and the tickets were non refundable and expensive (this was about two weeks ago). There has been, over the week, some slight passive aggressiveness about this (even from D12) but I have stuck to my guns. He sets the schedules. I will be flexible where I have not made plans but if I have, then I will not change them. I think that is fair - even where D12 would rather do something else with her dad.
On the dating front, I am convinced that there are very few normal people out there. 80% of the people who try and contact me are in their 20's. They start normal, but then after a few chat exchanges, the weird comes out: I have had one man (who seemed normal) ask me if I would be interested in having a sex slave, another man offer to massage me whilst naked, and then a whole host who cannot carry a conversation beyond "You are really hot. Do you want to meet?". There is one normal guy, single dad who talks about his son a lot. I think he might be worth meeting. There has been some contact from the guy from the other night. Some flirty (but not rude) and some just normal chat you'd have with a friend.
In any case, I am giving it another two weeks then deactivating. I think the effort of filtering through the rubbish is too high.
