I know my Rants and ravings ramblings and bit@hing is unproductive. I really appreciate everyone's input and everyone listening, your empathy, and I know your time is valuable and thank you. I have to talk about these things and literally get them off my chest otherwise if I keep it in for too long I will start to have shortness of breath and mild panic attacks. Verbally speaking into my phone and saying all this helps me feel better. Reaching out and responding to someone else on here helps me feel better. I'm much better well I guess we all are much better from the outside looking in on people's situations. I'm really great at giving advice to people especially in relationships but it's funny I can't manage my own. As far as the inconsistencies that everyone points out here you're all you're all right. I don't know if I'll ever be able to change that about me, until I can put down my feelings and emotions about someone or something. I'm very emotional and passionate about who I am and what I do, what I think about and what I believe in. But it's not healthy for me to keep dwelling on something or someone that doesn't no longer serve me, and I know it but I can't help it sometimes I just have to let it run its course, recover and keep pushing forward
