Isn’t asking to go to retrouvaille a massive form of pursuit?
The letters were bad. I won’t be writing anymore don’t worry about that.
First let me explain to others reading that normally we do not suggest Retro unless you're beginning piecing. I am only suggesting it to you because A) you and your W have communication issues that it would be a huge help with and B) you have not been BD'd which means she is not quite both feet out the door.
As far as it being pursuit, I already explained to you that you present it to her as a way of improving your communications. How would that be pursuit? Right now you don't know where you stand. Is she going to BD you? Isn't she? Does she still love you? Does she love you but is not in love with you? You can either continue on waiting for the other shoe to drop, or you can present Retro to her and get your answer sooner rather than later.