Feeling lost, scared and still fighting it... why?

[Turbine]

Well today is my last day at current employer. Mixed feelings about that. Got lots of 2x4s from them over six plus years. Some about work. Some about what we are all here for. Some for just because. Learned a lot and hopefully taught a little too. No burned bridges there so that's god.

Feeling better today about things in general.

Don't hate her... not saying it to convince myself. I really don't. Still love her even. I got to work on me still... for me.