That's true, Dilly. I love that man and in some ways I know I always will. It was actually easier to be angry and to be in blame, as I was last year. It's addictive, but it also protects you against grief. I need to grieve but I also need to start that process of moving forwards. I love him and I think because I love him the kindest thing I can do for both of us is to accept that he can't give me what I need, I can't stop needing it, and the best thing is to let things go.
