Back to my door and brick wall analogy. This protective order is a Foxtrotting sledge hammer... walk away from it Turbine.

Lots of hurt, despair, confusion, uncertainty and some loneliness.

Hurting her is the never on my mind. Always want to love her, support her, keep her safe. Another failure in my own eyes.

She hasn't acted like my wife since Jan '18. More roommate and a freeloading one at that.

Disappointed in her more than mad or angry. Even more myself.

Is that wrong?

H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1