LH trust me I don’t want to be her servant. She already knows I am not going to help her. She is on her own. I only want her back if she loves me again. Not because I help her with things.
Steve trust me I am not buying what she is selling. I just listen and be nice and validate. That doesn’t mean I am going to help her. Especially financially. She can go to her parents for that. They have a lot of money and will continue to enable her. Obviously I can’t and won’t control what her parents do for her. They are doing their d such a disservice.its their d and I get it but they are making our situation worse. My w doesn’t understand consequences to her actions.

It’s funny I have been reading about Did’s situation. I feel like that is me. Except for me paying for her rent. How he misses his family, the loneliness. It’s like us LBH have the same script too. I’m not done reading about his situation so I don’t know if things worked out. It’s just this internal struggle. Trying to do what is told on here vs what we feel. I do t know if my w will ever go back to who she was. I just miss the “old” her and our family. Family dinners, vacations, movie time and we use to do family game night. I miss my family. I wish she would miss it enough to want to fix it.

LH I am sure d is not as bad as I think it will be. Dating going out and having fun. I get all of that. I did that when I was in college. I lived my life and had my fun. When I got married it was because I found the “right” person and didn’t want to do that anymore. I have been going out and meeting women. It’s a great ego boost but it feels “weird” for a lack of better words. I guess this is my new reality and just take it one day at a time.


M:42 XW:41
T:19 M: 15
D:13 S:10
BD: 8/10/18
Moved out: 8/18
Moved in: 9/18/18
Moved out: 4/22/19
D papers signed 11/4/19
D final 3/18/20