I am trying not to blame him. I think he's doing his best, and I think I'm further along in the process than he is because I've had space and time to reflect and he hasn't. And as it stands, his best isn't good enough to sustain a marriage and either he does better, or the marriage ends. I guess we'll see. I feel okay today. I've decided unless he has some particular objection and needs me to do bath and bed with Youngest (if he's tired, that's fair enough) then I am going to go out and GAL with some friends for a couple of hours this evening. I don't want to cling to him or crowd him and I need some fun and conversation that he's in no fit state to provide right now.
