MC sessions are pretty much just a place for the WAS to vent.
I am so sorry you are in this position Destroyd. Its a very hurtful and hard thing to deal with. Its ok that you cry and you allow yourself to be emotional. Don't bottle that up. Nothing is wrong with that.
Just remember, now its time to focus on yourself. Focus on your kids. Time to better yourself. Stop taking action trying to save your MR. Take action to better yourself for yourself and your kids. Your W may see this or she may not. But in the end you will be a much better person.
My MR did not survive. I am in the final stage of moving on with my life. I am moving out of our dream house on June 1st. I am very sad, but I know that I am the best I can be. I know that my future will be bright because I decided that it will be.
I will not let what my EXWW did to our family hold me back one bit. I will not allow her justifications interfere with my life.
This is a true test of yourself as a person. I was married for 18 years. 22 year relationship total with my EXWW. I have known nothing else besides living with my EXWW and my kids. Being a father and a husband was all I knew and I was good at it. I had my failures but I addressed them.
Take it one day at a time. Detach yourself from your WAS. Sit down and make small goals for yourself and for your kids. What are you going to do today that will better yourself and make you happy? What are you going to do today to make your kids happy?
One day at a time. Thats it. Small steps, slow progress. You got this.
M:16 T:21 H(me) 38 WW: 38 S11 D16 D19 Red Flags of A: March 2018 ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018 Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018 BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018 D Filed: March 27, 2019