Just journalling. I am feeling super hormonal (sore breasts for 10 days is no fun, I will chat to the doctor next week to see if there are any options) and I feel exhausted despite a lot of time in bed, depressed and in need of human touch and contact. This is so hard. And the person I would usually turn to for comfort is a stranger who recoils from me. I can hardly bear it.
Anyway, I'm going to dry my eyes and take ds2 to his activity and get some work done there. This afternoon I'll go into the office for a few hours. Maybe go for a swim or a run or something over that way. I'm taking the kids and a friend of theirs away for a few days tomorrow but I won't see any friends or anything obviously when I'm away, I might text a friend just to meet up for a hug tonight or tomorrow on her way to work. I'm supposed to be meeting H for a long walk Sunday morning but I don't know whether to cancel it or not, he will want to see the kids at some stage anyway. He is being fairly distant, ever since he rang in a good mood after his cycle and I said I was going to meet up with a friend, he has gone cold. Oh well. I will not contact him.
Just having a really bad day. This too shall pass. I will climb out of this well of self-pity and pull myself together somehow. Even a short walk will help.
