Hurt is giving you good advice. Once upon a time I had to ride him pretty hard to let go lol. U at some point you are going to have to forgive yourself for your shortcomings in the relationship. There's no guide or manual giving to you when you get married. The real shame of everything is by the time people here are ready to roll up their sleeves and do the work it's too late.
I was watching a TV series a couple years ago and a mother was having a conversation with her daughter about marriage. She said you know the number one key to a successful long term marriage? "Forgiveness"
Unfortunately by the time people get here it not an option. Not right now anyways.
