So so new to this :(

[Nyla79]

What a weekend. My daughter (12y) called me Friday and told me she wanted to come home from her fathers’ house. She seemed quite distracted but didn’t tell me why. On Saturday she told me that she knows her dad has a girlfriend. She had been watching Netflix on his iPad and had seen his imessages to the OW. She told her older sister as well, and now the girls are so angry with him.

He tried lying to her about it and told her that this woman came along after we had separated, but my daughter didn’t believe him, of course she didn’t, she saw all the messages.

Now I’m a bit concerned what kind of messages there has been, I’m sure they’re not appropriate for children’s eyes.

This is so hard, the hardest for me is when the kids are hurting, and now that they’ve been hurting this weekend, I’ve been hurting so much too. I feel like the sadness is just now creeping up on me, it’s been almost 3 months since BD. Maybe I’ve just been in shock until now.
I feel hopeless, I don’t think he will ever come back, not after how much damage he has left behind. And that makes me sad. Before this, he was such a good husband and such a great father.
I want to stand, but I don’t know if I can and at the same time, I have no other choice but to stand. I’m so messed up.