Oh no no no.... it's not a turn, oh no.... not even close... I mean, a long long time before a possible turn. I just meant, I am hurting. I really needed.... something. I've been praying nonstop, and I'm not sure what to pray for.
That little crumb was the 1st one since this started and I wasn't going to pass on it. We are still very civil (which is soooo confusing). It was just a glimpse.
I joined a gym today, and my 1st class is Tuesday.... very excited. Planning on doing at least 4 classes a week at night. Get me out of the house, maybe even meet some new people and make new friends. I wonder if there are groups of people that meet in person..... too bad there aren't teleporters, I'd love to meet some of the people on this board.
Tonight I'll see if she sleeps in the MBR or goes back to the other bed. I start detaching and something changes and I relapse. Very hard when you truly love someone.
