Your message is focused almost entirely on your W. You are trying to mind-read a woman who moved to another country months ago. Why are you looking at her status on linkedin? Cut that out. Block her, or unfriend her, or whatever it is you do there. It's not going to help your state of mind to get these little crumbs of information that mean nothing. You have to let her go. It may be an awful serious of decisions, enormous mistakes, but you have to let her make them. The relationship you had is over. Grieve it, but let it go. Perhaps one day you can construct a new relationship with her, but you can't keep hanging on to the dead one. It will poison you.
What are you doing for yourself? How are you GALing? How are you moving forward with your life? How are you improving yourself? You mention those things, but only in passing while devoting most of your attention to your W. What's the story there?
hugs,
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
