So last night she went to a baseball game after returning from staying the night at her sisters. She went to a bar with girlfriends from work and was out late.
I may have made a mistake without knowing it was a mistake (hindsight 20/20 right?).
So I planned to be in bed (and try to be asleep) before she got home, to remove stress/pressure and show trust. I didn't want to be the "were do you go? Did you dance with men?", that kinda H. No, just calmly be in bed, be asleep. Cool as a cat.
Well, I wasn't asleep.... did my best to ask asleep though. She came in and I think I could lightly smell the alcohol...... I've never seen my wife drunk, and I've never smelled alcohol in her, ever. I could heard her moving around, and heard her close the MBR door. How I was able to fall asleep in this moment, I don't know. My heart was beating.... no it was racing. But it fell asleep right then.
This morning I woke up, no W. ?????? The TV was still on (we leave the TV on until someone comes to bed, normally me, and then it's turned off).
I realized she didn't come to bed. She went in there, waffled around and then went and slept in the guest room.
Ungh!!! Now I understand.... In trying to removed stress, I increased it. She could see me there sleeping and couldn't join me. Normally I'm climbing into bed with her when she's already asleep, so no stress... but she's been moving fast to get away from me in the mornings. Now I understand why.
Holy crap this just took a turn for the worst. Will she move out of MBR today? Will she ask me to move out of MBR (I don't think she'd do that. The extra bed is in her crafting room).
I'm so sad.... in kindness and love, what have I done?
