UN, I will, hope I can get the 1st call done soon.
I think having a real plan will help a lot. Giving her time and space is good, and hopefully helping her to some extent.
Now I understand how people can make big mistakes in what they say. If she was here tonight I could be in real trouble. So many emotions..... anger, sadness, betrayal, more anger..... even worse are the questions that go with them.
Absolutely a spiritual battle..... these thoughts are not something I'd normally think. I'm not an angry, hate filled person. Since we're linked by marriage, I wonder if she experiences the same thing at the same time.... or if she has relief while I take the hits.
Hang in there man this definitely is a roller coaster ride a which includes so many ups and downs. This is probably going to take years to play itself out.
I can tell by your posts that you will come out of this on the other side a better person and will survive and thrive one way or another.
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Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.