8 months since my WW told me she wanted a divorce.
1 year since her and AP I believe started their EA, which evolved into a PA in mid-june 2018.
8.5 months since I last saw her.
3.5 months she last contacted me, regarding the divorce.
I still haven't been served papers.
She is living back in Germany again since probably last February. I believe she is living with her AP since.
She deactivated her FB account over 2 months ago.
We are still married, nothing legally signed, just separated.
I'm keeping busy and moving forward, but I do hate this limbo. I know that once the year mark comes since she moved out, i can legally make decisions.
The last few weeks since my birthday, I have been reflective and trying to understand this mess. I still feel dehumanized and emasculated.
Perhaps my WW regrets what she did, but has not once shown any remorse or signs of coming back.
Her life seems to be revolved about her work and AP. Nothing else.
I haven't heard from my in-laws at Christmas. I don't expect to either. It's awkward on them and I know that they really don't know what to say to me anymore, as they probably feel they don't want to hurt me..
I haven't been messaging them, writing bad things about my WW or anything. I never did that. There is just a depressing lack of communication or action from her side. Sometimes I dream I will receive a letter or email saying she wants to work things out, she regrets what she did and if I would give her another chance.
Doing all the right things, GAL, detached, working on myself and keeping busy. But i do feel mugged from what happened to me.
Just journaling and wanted to share my thoughts.
Hope you all are doing well and making progress too.
BH: 36 WW:33 M: 2 Relationship: 6 years. Dday: Aug 2018 0 1st mention of D: 30/09, 2nd Mention 17/02/2019 LRT: Oct 2018 WW & AP: EA & PA since June 2018 (Moved country and in with AP Feb 2019)
