She can't hold any eye contact with me anymore. Really? Why is this? Guilt? Really noticed it a couple days ago, and used the last two days to confirm it. Par for the course? I'm trying to prepare for the big stuff..... but these small things really catch me off guard.
I tried a very small test last night where after making dinner, I sat on the couch with her (normally I'd be in the recliner or love seat). She didn't say anything about it, and we had a couple good laughs watching part of 50 1st dates (one of her favorite movies). She sits with her legs up on the couch, and I noticed she'd relax a bit and then recoil once she realized her feet were on the same cushion as me (not touching or anything). So strange.... like I'm a weirdo or something.
After a little while she went upstairs and closed the MBR door. Didn't see her again until I went to bed. I really like that she's using our rule for having space. I hope it's helping her de-stress and give a chance for her to work on internal issues. She's going to go visit her sister tonight and stay over, maybe that will do her some good too. It'll be the first time she's seen any family since giving her rings back to me. Who knows what will come (if anything) from that. Actually a little concerned because her sister is outspoken, and absolutely HATES any MLC type behavior because that's what her mom did (SIL barely speaks with her mom, even after all this time....almost 30 years). Maybe I'll be getting a phone call from her after the visit......
Well, I'm going to do my thing and not worry about it. Plenty of productive and fun things to do. GAL it up!!!
