I know, it's not easy thinking she could also be with other people, but that could be true if I'm with her or not (same with any other girl I may date). I do think that has slowed (if not stopped) - the physical at least. Still more curious about emotional - but that's only my assumption. In other words I don't currently feel like I'm actively 'sharing' only starting to re-attract and see if the feelings are mutual.
I think I just judge the 'limbo' stage a little differently than most. I don't like being in this situation and do wish she was fully broken and running back to me - but the truth is, if she did that tomorrow it would scare me for multiple reasons. Essentially I'm taking it very slow emotionally by limiting all expectations and just focusing what I want at the time. As I said; I'm SOOOO VERY happy to be leaving this weekend and busy next week. Then neither I nor her can act on this 'momentum" too soon. As I I do believe it's to soon for any additional steps or consistent interaction. I'm just 'playing' now, giving her similar "honeymoon' feelings that she is/was getting from OM. So that she can see it is right here as well, it's not gone. Does she deserve? - No! but thats a different story for later. And I'm doing it more for my needs/wants than I am hers (at least thats what I've convinced myself so far). Risk/Reward! Could get crushed again, or could eventually WIN.
H(me:) 44 W: 45 T: 16yrs M: 13 S: 9 S: 6 Pre BD (not really recognized by either) 8/18 PA 11/18 PA suspected 12/22/18 (Denied) PA confirmed 12/28/18 PA #2 (Different) 2/16/19 S: 4/7/2019
