But then why the anger last week at “my distance”. Is it really as simple as her projecting her own feelings onto me? More justification for her anger so she can leave? Or could she have some lingering feelings? Ugh I know I need to let go. I feel screwed up in the head that I still love W like this despite what is happening... because I shouldn’t love her like this right now. I need to have more self respect than that.
who cares why she's angry. you're gonna spin plates if you go down that path of speculation. even if you found the answer, it's not going to help you in any way. there's really no reason asking 'why' questions to her behavior. she's doing what she's doing. it just is.
about self-respect - that comes from action and doing things for yourself in alignment with your values. this means having boundaries, understanding what's important to you and doing things that feed those values. self-respect will naturally come when you start doing things. don't live in your head. I say that you have to move forward with 2 steps of action and then pause and reflect, and then keep going. it's easier to live in your head and drive yourself mad. action is going to get you out of that over time.
