Got a life, now what?

[97Hope]

WWIII up in here the other day. H motioned that his cousin and her hubby and kids were planning on coming into town and were talking about staying here. (H moved out Feb 1. Said he is filing "soon" 2 weeks ago). I said "have her call me" and it sent him off into a level of anger I haven't seen in quite a while.

H: "why does she need to call you?"
me: so we can work out the details
H: "what details?
me: how many, how long, meals, etc.

At this point, it went south quickly in front of our S17. H believes since this is "still his house" he has the "right" to allow anyone he wants to stay here and that if I don't feel up for company, I should leave for the time. He actually believes this!!! He said I should be thankful for providing a house for me and paying all the bills (he makes GOBS of money and i've been a SAHM until recently) I said that I was thankful and he said I sure wasn't acting like it! lol No. I'm just not agreeing to everything you say!! Ugh.

We didn't fight long, in front of S but I did say "that's not how this works" H said "that is absolutely how this works" to which I replied "you. don't. live. here. I have the final authority on who comes and goes from my HOME.

He called after he left (about 30 min to an hour). and it started up again. Hindsight....NEVER having a convo with him about rights. If I need to, I'll just tell people he invite that it's not a good time and go around H. No one who are mutual friends will believe the chaos around here because H hasn't told anyone in his family or close friends.

The MLC roller coaster is NOT my cup of tea. I regret getting on, but I got back off and now trying not to beat myself up for taking the bait.

This actually isn't completely new. He has always felt "entitled". MLC just brings it out with hurricane force.

And makes me question just what exactly I would be missing....

Feeling so sad and lonely but working helps. Everyone there is still amazing and cool. Drive is brutal but finding joy in the sermons I've been listening to. Hope in the Lord is much better than hope in any person!! Has brought me peace!


The thought of dating ANYONE else..ever...still makes me pukey. Will that change?

Blessings to all of you. Advice welcome.