I am finally feeling better! Thank you AlisonUK! I think I had the flu that turned into bronchitis, but I'm on the mend!

I went to the gym for the first time in 2 weeks today and I feel pretty good smile H was away on business for the last 5 days so things were pretty quiet at home. To be honest, I am getting used to him not being around and I'm not sure if I'd say I like it, but I'm less anxious and eat and sleep well when he is not here. He texted often and called a few times, even calling me Hon in a text which was weird. When he called me last night I could tell he was a bit homesick. I'm not reading into anything, or at least not trying to....

I've learned a bit more information about the breakup with OW. Apparently it was more on her end. She found out that I knew she and I would be at the same event and panicked. She was worried I may confront her (such a joke- not my style). She told H they could not even be friends and could no longer talk because she is worried about losing her kids at this point and she can't take that chance. Who knows..... I have no reason to believe a word he says, but he has never even discussed OW with me. I did not see her at the event, but I was busy enjoying myself and was certainly not looking.

I'm not sure where I stand at this point. I am anxious about him coming home tonight, I almost don't want him here. I want to save my marriage, but I do not want to be married to this current version of my husband. For now I know I need to continue to GAL and focus on myself and my family. I have a job interview next week that I am very excited about. It would be a great move for me. I have dinner plans with friends tomorrow and I may try to sneak away for a day over this long weekend. The more I focus on me, the less I think about H.