Originally Posted by MLCxH

Are you getting counseling?

This is why it is important to GAL. Easy to say and hard to do but it is important to do. If you dont GAL I fear you will only be more depressed.

Yes I am in IC. What helps more is GAL, reading, meditating a bit. I think lack of sleep and loss of weight are impacting me physically quite a bit.

Originally Posted by MLCxH
It is hard to accept but this is important. You need to accept that she is gone. Maybe she will come back maybe she wont but at this point you need to accept this for your own sanity

Agreed. But your message is clear - I need to get out of this “depressed acceptance” mode of thinking. Get off my @$$, get back to PMA, and get to work. I let this mini-episode of “W reacts to my DB, brief overture to talk, I try to reach out, she is super cold and distant” suck me right back in.