No texts no calls. I’m lonely. I’m away from my kids and I can see this is my new life. W is completely distant. This letter episode that happened was just a trigger event. I know I did nothing wrong. I know she was a volcano waiting to erupt.
I don’t know if I can make it to July. It feels more and more like living a charade. She has secret plans, I act dumb. We never talk about the future, even what we are doing this summer. I have to act like I never saw the D book. Our anniversary is in June and I have no clue what to do. Two more month of living like this.
It’s not 100% my fault things played out this way. She feels gone. I know the hope will linger and try to pull me back. But it will fade. I need to accept she is gone.
