Welp you said what you said. Just understand that the conversation you had will not change her mind.

Like AS said, she will not be open and honest with you about an A. Your MR is over. You need to accept that.

Even though you shouldnt have talked to her about loving her etc, you did.

Now just remember that you said those things. Never say them again. Its time to stop being plan B. Shift all of the focus onto yourself and back way off of her. Set her free. Drop that rope and start dealing with your life. Start preparing for the very likely possibility that you will be D.

M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019