Several phone calls with lots of R talks, none of them very productive. He thinks he wants a D, he doesn't want both of us to be 'desperately unhappy'. I said I'm not desperately unhappy (I'm really not, I feel frustrated but not unhappy). I validated which is not easy when he just blurts something out and then goes silent. My validation 'I can see how you'd feel that way' was dismissed as something out of Cosmo. Clearly not very good validation. I apologised for getting jealous if it turned out it wasn't warranted, but pointed out that he doesn't give me much to work on. He said trust wasn't the issue. He said we're different people and have nothing in common. Blah blah usual stuff which I hate.
I knew I shouldn't have started this, but I still don't regret it. I'm not putting up with this status quo. Every time we get on a bit better he shoves me back, I cannot keep going like this. If it ends up with one of us going for D then maybe it's the right move. He just texted me to say that relationships should make you happy and he just feels sad. I rang him and said I was sorry he was sad. I said I thought we both enjoyed spending time together but he seems to have rewritten that yet again. He is clearly confused. But then, so am I.
