Another week has passed since I've posted. I do still check in from time to time, but I think taking a break has been a healthy move for me. Or perhaps, because I'm in a healthier, better place I don't need to post. Either way, things are going well.
D19 and I went camping this weekend. Suppose to be 2 nights, but the yellow flies where out of control, so back home in 24 hours! Managed to build 3 campfires without the use of starters, cooked a few meals on the open fire, a wild boar cruised by the tent in the middle of the night, went kayaking on the river (saw river otters), and just bonded with my baby. It was great!'
Life is full and busy. Next 3 weekends are booked, and I've got my usual activities during the week. So the GAL business is booming.
I realized today that it's been at least 2 weeks but probably more like 3 since I looked at our phone records and blocked OW. Surely that has helped put me in a different frame of mind. Calmer for sure. Still go on H's FB from time-to-time. But that doesn't seem to bother me so much. I don't really see him, and he really doesn't reach out to the me or even the kids (as far as I know). D19 said she was glad I was getting out and doing things. Nice to hear from her. She says nothing about my sitch or her dad.
I was a bit worried about H this week. I'm still concerned for his well-being. There was an e-mail in our joint e-mail account about info on how to replace the key for the gun safe he has with him. Apparently he lost the key and couldn't remember the finger pattern. I found it a bit interesting he would use our e-mail to inquire about this, as he doesn't use it for hardly anything else. Does he want me to ask about it? I do wonder why he wants access now. Maybe just to go to the shooting range. But, with his previous statements about it, I am a bit concerned. The key arrived at our house, and I just left the package for him to pick up with the rest of the mail when he came to do the lawn. I made no comment.
Although I don't comment like I used to, I still follow many of you. For those of you just starting out, keep posting, and apply the principles you read here. My posting, and the advice and support from those of you here (you know who you are!), saw me through some very dark times. Thank you!
As I typed that last bit, I realized it sounds like good-bye. It's not! But, I think it might signify a good-bye of the first leg of my journey. For now, I am content, happy, and, I believe, even thriving. At some point, if H makes no move to do anything, I might make the decision for him. For now, I'm content as things are.
