Got a life, now what?

[97Hope]

Seriously.

He just sent a link to his calendar. ??? I have to laugh at these crazy times. I had asked him for years to let me know when he is on call and when he will be out of town for the military and he does this 2 weeks after he says he's filing.

Might be on the advice of the L - coparenting tips - who knows. I'm suspicious of everything he does lately. Is he being nice for a future of being D? Probably.

S17 had a breakdown last night. I suggested he call his dad. He said "if he wanted to be here for me, he would be here". The boy is not wrong. Now H is concerned about what the IC for the S17 will keep from us. Just got a long 'speech' about it. I just said, if you have concerns, you can certainly talk to the IC about them but S17 wants this, I know it will help him learn some heathy coping skills. Ugh. I hate the control issues.

I will be finished with my contract next week. Wondering if I should hurry up and find work sometimes, but then I come back out of fear and remember that I didn't ask for this, I don't want it, and I will NOT allow H to captain my emo ship. I will take one day at a time and adjust my sails accordingly, but I will not go into panic mode because he's not in a good place.

Hope everyone is finding peace today.