You are only responsible for 50% of the relationship. The other 50% is her. Yes recognize your bad behaviors and 180 them. But dont beat yourself up about the past. The past cannot be changed. The future can be directed.
SoTorn Thank you -
Yes, i'm needing to 180 those shipwrecked ways. And also not beat myself for that which cannot fix.
This shock has identified my apathy. I only wish W would consider the things i've put in place. However, the R is not the carrot I'm chasing....Healing - yes.
Now that I'm AWAKENED the death of apathy is occurring in my heart and life. For the last seven years I've been apathetic in the most important areas of my life despite the profound need to heal my soul and re-strengthen my relationships (we served overseas for the 7 years previous these "current" seven years back home in the States).
So now I'm reaping the benefits of my blindness to apathy and it's subtle destruction in my life and with my stbx and children.
I am so thankful for the encouraging words people have shared in this post. So very thankful...
M-19, T-22 M-53, W 44 D15, S13 Separate BRs 02/2018 (during and after I had pneumonia) W (left separation - no A) - ? ~ 05/03-09/2019 BD 05/16/19
