Back in April when I was apologizing profusely in letters, I also asked W (via e-mail) if we could go back to MC sooner than July. She never responded. I was making classic mistakes here, over apologizing, and in writing, so she can go back to the letters every single day if she wants.
I also asked her to speak in person, as I wanted to briefly follow up to my letters with an in-person apology. She said, in effect, "Maybe in front of your IC". Admiral Ackbar! I declined, and have not followed up.
Maybe 2 weeks ago she texted me to see if I wanted to have that talk in front of IC, and/or start MC in June or July. I said, "I'm interested in MC." At this point I was up to speed on DB basics.
Lately she's told me a couple times she's having trouble contacting MCs with availability. I've mostly responded with an "OK" or a shrug. She asked me to see if my IC had any recommendations, and he did give me a couple names.
I'm aware MC is likely going to be the BD, at which point I plan to respond briefly ("not what I want, but I won't stand in your way"). I'm not looking for closure. If W is planning to discuss in MC how to tell the kids, how to co-parent, etc., I might be okay with that but I figure I will need some time post-BD to gather my thoughts. Honestly I feel like I deserve the time to consider what I think is best in that scenario.
So basically... I'm completely lukewarm about MC (at best). I have 2 names from my IC.
What would be the best response here? Text her the names? Wait awhile? Say nothing, and let her drive finding the MC? She says nothing about wanting to work on the M, which is not how things were during our first MC search last summer.
