I have been consumed by fear, thats for sure... Fear that if I left go, he would never come back... Fear that, If I didn't show him I cared, he would never come back, fear that if I got on with my life I would fall our of love with him and not have him in my life anymore...The fear of letting go is very difficult to get my head around... Can I ask, He has been very apologetic, telling me I deserve better, I have done nothing wrong, he wants me to be happy....etc.....Crying on Saturday over what he is doing to me... but he cant help it... Loves me but not in love... or does he even know how to deal with his pain and come back..As a general rule he has not been nasty verbally to me, his actions have definitely been nasty! I am just trying trying to understand.......If this is even possible...
