Sandi. Thank you SOOOOOOOO much for all the feedback. I appreciate it so much as I know you have been in the WW shoes and what you're saying makes SO. MUCH. SENSE.
I have not been acting to gain respect but willing to acquiesce to her because I want the M!!
But I see now why that makes sense to stop. When I don't engage her "silliness" as she likes to call it because of course its ALL in jest, she'll ask if I'm mad or why I'm being short. I'm simply not engaging. Lots of temperature checking as you can imagine when I don't play along.
I have stopped bringing her coffee in the mornings which she is WAY curious as to why. I haven't directly answered. She asked this morning if it was because I was making a stand.
I haven't been GAL enough, we usually retire in our MBR to watch a show together before bed. I work a long day, work out at the gym during lunch and then am pretty beat by the time we get the kids to bed.
To answer your question, we have 3 young kids ages D8, S7 and S5. They LOVE us and because of the silliness and engagement at dinner and praying as a family before bed, they are pretty oblivious that we aren't on track.
Again, I'm SO appreciative for you feedback. I'm trying to find new ways to self-discover, I joined a meet-up group yesterday for outdoor activities in our area. I'm not going to date through this process. While I'm lonely as h***, I never want to tell my kids that Daddy did this when Mommy gave up. I see that as integrity. I will stand by my wife until it is final spiritually and lawfully.
I am definitely becoming the man I wish that I was years ago for sure. Not with shame (at least not as heavily as I once did), but I know that I'm a catch. Getting more confident of this day-by-day.
By the way what is NGS?
Last edited by si13; 05/15/1902:32 PM.
H46 W38 M12 T15 D8,S7,S5
11/12/17 "I don't want to be married like this" A began 7/12/18 Confessed A 10/1/19 EA still happening with 2 4/23/19 "I want a D, but I want to stay until I find a job"
