I totally get what you are going through Hurt. My STBXH and I spent much of our marriage under financial stress and were looking forward to finally being able to do things like take vacations with our kids and each other. Following our first BD in 2014, he even backed out of a trip to Hawaii that I ended up going on alone. So when he took his affair to Hawaii a day after our 12th anniversary, yeah, that bugged me for sure - especially when he was paying for it with money that I gave him in our settlement. So it bothered me but I didn’t send me spinning and I took our kids and his mom to San Diego and had a great time. I also told myself that I have other vacations ahead of me in the future...with our kids and hopefully with a significant other as well. The future is unknown but it is also exciting... not to know or think we know what lies ahead. Embrace the uncertainty of it...live your life for you...make your future a great one!!!
I know it doesn’t always feel that way but you are doing great Hurt. Keep acting as if...eventually you won’t need to act anymore. (((HUGS)))
