Have a look at the link - all of her stuff is simply priceless and helped me no end.
She had a "sermon" thread somewhere too. There will definitely be a way you can find it.
Best, GH31
Hey GH, I found Hearts Blessing website (LOL, I thought it was a poster here)..... wow. I dropped the book and have been reading all her articles nonstop since this afternoon when I found it....... WoW. Completely flipped my lid about expectation, why stand, and how God fits into all of it. Easily the most powerful stuff I've read yet (and still reading right now).
Now I understand WHY the M is dead (totally breaks my heart), WHY I have to grow NOW, and that it will just never be the same (this completely floors me). All this pain to grow, then we get a new mess to support and heal when it's all over (maybe), and after all that...... accept it's a choice for me and for W to stay together each day. That freaking [censored]. One of the things I LOVED about my M (and I guess will soooo miss forever) is the absolute peace, trust and certainty that I thought was eternal. That aspect is gone, and will never return. That is so mind-blowing sad. My W once asked my what was the best part of our M: I replied "Peace. While everyone else turns in the wind, and revels in their dramas.... we are the calm lakes and still waters. It is a beauty most will never know". HA..... it's a beauty I won't know again!!! "Oh you're doing something weird"..... [detaches emotions]. *BANG!!!* One of the things I thought I knew about love was being open and absolutely vulnerable to your spouse. It was the trust that they wouldn't kill you which was a type of intimacy and trust shared only to one. Once detachment skills are strong I wonder if that too will be gone forever.
