After all the stops and starts it looks like my husband is going to move out June 15th. He has rented his own place (it's 30 minutes away from our current home in another town And it kind of a dump. It looks like the kind of place you rent in college with a bunch of friends because you have no money. I think this college age may be the period in his life my husband is trying to relive). Our separation agreement is with the lawyers and likely nearing completion. He wants to tell the kids June 1st. I told him he should draft out what he wants to say to the kids so that we can look it over together, in advance. He then let me know that he doesn't like to talk to me about our separation because I have done nothing to make this process easier for him. I did my best to remain calm and I reminded him that I did not want this and it was not my responsibility to make this easy for him. He walked away then.
I think, in many ways, it will be healthier for me to have him out of the house. It has been an enormously stressful 6 months living under the same roof while he goes off and does whatever he wants whenever he wants. Some distance will likely be good for me. After all, I am a complete person, with or without him.
I am still sick with thoughts of telling the kids. This has been my primary concern from the beginning. The devastation this will bring about for them. And my husband is completely nonchalant about it. He believes they will adjust within a month. Right now I am trying to gather my courage to be the Mom my kids need through all of this.
