Been dealing with some obnoxious work emails so I need a quick break. Woke up feeling really blue. It’s most definitely hormones, but I can’t stop myself from saying out loud, I feel so sad! No amount of ding dongs is pulling me out of the funk!
At least I know I’ll be out of it soon. That’s another plus side of going through this experience, that hyper sensitivity and awareness of ones self and emotions that develops after walking through your own fog for so many years.
Anyway.... I actually had a great weekend. Celebrated my mom to the fullest. Had lots of fun. Got to meet my dearest friends brand new baby boy. Omg—soooo many babies. I know nobody is rubbing it in my face, but gosh- Everyone and their sister is pregnant. Just yesterday on mother’s day, 2 of my friends announced their pregnancies within 5 minutes of each other. The baby craze is madness.
Things have been dead silent with ex. That’s expected. There seems to be more life happening at my old house. There was a women’s wet suit and surf board hanging off the fence in the front yard. Mehhhh. Last week there was a tiny uhaul trailer in the front. Honestly, I can’t think about it too much. Whatever is happening is of no concern to me.
Been feeling ready to shake things up for a while. My lease on my apartment is coming due and while I originally told myself there’s no f’ing way I’m moving right now, it seems like I could get in a different place with more space and tiny yard for the same amount I’m paying currently. It may make sense to make a move. I reached out to a couple property management companies over the weekend. So... we’ll see.
Also, I was waiting for a job to open up for a few months now. A person was retiring and I had my eye on his job.... well, it doesn’t look like they are replacing him after all. Sadddddd. That’s ok. The job would require a lot of inter-region travel and I know my quality of life is dependent on me NOT spending hours on end in so cal traffic. With that, a different job just opened up. I am very qualified for it and it kind of aligns with the work I already do. It would be a little promotion but I would lose visibility. Right now I have an insane amount of visibility with the executive team. I could put my name in the hat just to see what it’s about. While I love my job, it could be good to shake that up too. It would be nice to have balance. My current job does not allow for a lot of balance.
Ok... time to refocus on my desk. Hope you have a nice day!
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
