Not struggling quite as much

[Jim1234]

Hmmmm can't believe it's been this long since I logged on.

just journaling a little.

Still not divorced, but it is progressing. In December we agreed on a Separation Agreement and filed it with the court. The only real step left is the QDRO, and that just seems to be dragging on, but it's not contentious.

Emotionally, I'm doing better, and still gaining emotional distance. Not all the way there yet; sometimes I still get sad, angry, upset, but most of the time I'm just doing my own thing.

That includes dating. I've been with the same woman off and on for about a year and a half now. She's divorcing, too, so we help each other thru the steps. I'm not a very good boyfriend. I do enjoy her company, but.... I don't make her a priority, don't really want to, and she knows it. I'm not sure if I'm just still emotionally unavailable because of my ex and an unwillingness to open up and risk getting hurt again, or I'm just not all that interested in her.

Right now I'm struggling to deal with college financing issues that spill over into income tax issues. STBX made some decisions that are going to significantly reduce the assistance offered, and I'm trying to mitigate as much as I can. And no, I'm not doing it for her, although she will benefit. It's primarily to save me around $15,000 in tuition over the next 6 years, and will reduce each of my kids' student loans by about that amount.

On the upside, my kids, parents, brother, and his family have a beach house rented in June, so I"m looking forward to that. My girlfriend and I spent a week in Cancun last month. Financially, I'm doing well, and my kids seem to be really great.