Unchien - I think you're right. There is a difference between limbo and taking things for granted and security. I guess I put a lot of my security or emotional well being into my husband's lap. Now I am gradually taking it back. I would like to repair my marriage (or at least, I feel like that today - other days I am very ambivalent) but if it isn't possible, then I want to be okay. I want to have security in myself and my spirituality, rather than my marriage and my H, which are things outside of my control. I am not there yet. And I think getting there is the first challenge. The second challenge will be to keep my sense of security in myself while also repairing my M. Being intimate without being dependent. I don't know how to do that.
