Hi Gerda! Its so good to hear from you! I was so happy to see your name pop up on the boards!Isn't it funny how these names have come to represent us in such a meaningful way to others even though they aren't even really our names? You are one of my favorite people!!
Oh my gosh, REALLY? That means a lot a lot a lot to me. It's funny how little we all know each other but how in these few words on these few threads, we end up finding our like-minded friends and really being there for each other. It is often so hard to see myself as likable after the last 6 years so I had to read your words like ten times and try to push out of my mind the thought, "Oh but he really doesn't know me!"
I think there has been a theme this week among my guy friends on the boards of feeling that lingering love for your W is a form of weakness. So I will say it to you too -- those feelings are to those of us LBS wives, or at least this one, a sign of real hope. Maybe not hope that they will all come back but hope that love is real, and worth it. Your lingering love is a light to me, and I understand why you don't see anything to feel hope about and don't think you want to go back, but from the outside, I not only see that as a possibility always for you and your W but, even if it doesn't happen, it's proof to me that unconditional love is possible, and I never want to stop believing in that.
I was just reading those old posts by "Amy" that someone bumped up. They really hit me, and I recommend them to you. She really articulated how many lies she was believing and telling others about her spouse. When she began to see that she was believing something untrue, things started to shift. It really inspired me to read that.
Anyway, thanks for the kind words, made my day!
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
