H is off for the day. He is participating in an obstacle race with several members from the gym, including OW, on Mother's Day!! Obstacle races are something he and I used to do together, so it stings even more. I'm trying not to show my H how much this is hurting me today, but he knows. When he signed up for the race he said it didn't feel right b/c it was always "our thing". Hmmmm..... that didn't stop him though. He knocked on my door to wish me a happy MD before he left, and asked me about my day. I said thank you, gave him a quick response and said goodbye. I am so hurt by his actions, I don't even want to look at him. This may be my breaking point.
Today I will visit my mom for a bit, talk to my kids, get some homework done, and have a quiet day to myself. I'm still pretty sick, but I think I will treat myself to some shopping and get out of the house.
I think maybe it is time for him to leave. Time for a physical separation. I can no longer live like this, I need to protect myself emotionally and financially. His spending habits are out of control lately. H seems perfectly happy with our current arrangement, coming and going as he pleases the last few days, checking in with me to ease his guilt so he can feel like a good guy.
At this point, do I approach him and ask him to leave? Give him a deadline? Or wait for him to bring it up again?
