He came by today just out of the blue. S17 is at work. Just me home. we worked together to feed the horses/cows etc. We always get along great when we do that. Talked about S17 and his sitch.
H commented on how skinny I am. Asked about my underwear. (???)
Tried to have S with me when we got back to the house. I said, No and got away.
He seemed to want to hang out so I changed clothes and said I was going to a friends house.
He asked what I'm doing tomorrow. I was vague. He knows that I'm going to a fundraiser tomorrow night.
I enjoy his company far too much. How do I focus on myself and my healing without focusing on his negative aspects? I will admit I don't have the best coping skills, so in the past, when I want to get over something, I go negative. I really don't want to do that anymore.
Any advice? Also, He hasn't brought up filing again, but I will not be surprised when it happens. Sad. Hurt, but not surprised.
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
